Raptors

When does an interest become an obsession? Is there some invisible line that you cross and all of sudden you find your friends trying to change the subject all the time?

As I walked my dogs today in a very brisk wind, I spied the ferruginous hawks playing in the updrafts. Has anyone ever studied that behavior? Is it really play, or just an opportunity to have the wind do part of the work? As I watched, the female stooped and fell to earth, but from my vantage point I could not see what her prey was.

Returning home I found myself exploring the licensing requirements for a falconry license. I started this project long ago, but became discouraged when I saw that it was recommended that you capture your first bird, hopefully a young American Kestrel. The thought of kidnapping a bird put me off my feed (as we say here in the West), and although I had already arranged a sponsor (you have to apprentice for two years) I let the matter drop.

The recent story about Travis the chimp made me realize that there are probably falcons and hawks for sale online. I soon learned that some people are looking for homes for birds that can't hunt for one reason or another, or that are not appropriate for public hunt sites. If these birds are not placed, I presume they meet the fate of all unwanted animals. The rescuer in me was put on high alert.

I am starting the process anew, although I guess there is no guarantee I will actually follow through this time either. I just would love to have input from all my thoughtful and interested friends. So, I've put together a little survey, and I hope you'll take a second to vote.

If I do go through with it, I'll keep you posted.

Milestones and Missed Opportunities

Milestones have a way of sneaking up on you, don’t they? Not so much when you have your first baby home, and feel that you have to document every drool, every nap, and that strange smile a baby gets when it passes gas. But, after that, when the milestones stretch far enough back in time that they mark the way to Venezuela.

Recently I passed a milestone I never thought would be part of my life; the foofoo dog milestone. I’ve always loved labs, border collies, blue heelers, chows, and combinations of the same. My dogs have been workers or guardians, well loved, but held at a certain distance. Enter Tex the Yorkie.

A gift from my daughter, Tex was named before he was delivered, as my daughter was convinced that, true nerd fashion, I would name the poor creature Ewok, or worse yet, Deej after the ewok cum mountain man in the Star Wars movies. Her husband picked the biggest name he could think of for a dog that weighed a pound and half. Now a whopping nine pounds and full grown, Tex tries to live up to his name every time someone dares to approach the house, growling and barking as if to say, “Stand right there, Pardner, and let me see your hands. Drop the gun, slowly . . .slowly.”
This little ball of fur and spirit has solved a mystery that I’ve wondered about for years.

A long time ago, in a galaxy far away, I was a prison lawyer. When our grant was renewed the salaries were not increased, and I was already unable to make ends meet. My boss gave me the choice to continue to work for next to nothing or be laid off. I chose being laid off.

While a little unnerving to be laid off two years out of law school, like so many “misfortunes” the event was actually a wonderful opportunity in disguise. I had always wanted to return to a small town like the one in which I grew up, and now I had the chance to find the right spot. I decided to spend the summer traveling through the West looking for my new home.

From Strawberry, California to Lee Vining, to Winnemuca, on to Elko, I drove, looking in each little town to see if they had a stone or brick courthouse. For some reason a stone or brick courthouse became emblematic for me, an indication that the town had the lifestyle I was looking for. In those days, the courthouses were located downtown, often off a town square. As I drove through the towns, then on to Twin Falls and Pocatello, Idaho, driving through downtowns with shuttered shops, and Mary’s Cafes, and Dew Drop Inns, I noticed a similarity. Everywhere I looked there were rugged old men with little tiny dogs, riding along in the pick-up, leading the way down a sidewalk on a leash, or cradled in the arms that looked like they’d spent many years driving a tractor.

The men wore cowboy hats, and worn boots, jeans with pressed creases and pearl snap shirts, and the company they were keeping were little cross breed dogs that clearly adored them. As I drove I conceived of a book “Men and Their Dogs”, a series of photographs of these extraordinary men and the charming little dogs.

Like so many things conceived on a road trip, I kept putting off starting my project. I found Montrose and it’s stone courthouse, and home. Then the nursery rhyme came true, you know the one, “First comes love, then comes marriage, then come Peggy pushing a baby carriage”, and my life was consumed with other things.

Many of those old timers are gone now, and I've missed the opportunity to document this delightful phenomena. I can still picture one guy in his grey Stetson, walking the streets of Elko, Nevada led by a tiny little mutt. I only hope Tex and I can live up to his example.

Spotted Dog

My first ambition was to be a waitress. Or a firefighter. Or an astronaut. My aspiration to restaurant service was inspired by the waitresses at the Red Rooster Drive In. They wore short skirts held out by scrunchy crinolines, roller-skates, and they could carry a loaded tray balanced on one shoulder and one hand. The firefighter is easy –what more could a girl need than a red truck and a black and white spotted dog. The astronaut; well I have to admit the bulky spacesuit and huge round helmet were not attractive. It must have been the idea of orbiting the world in a silent space all my own (being fourth of six children will do that to you).

My parents were not thrilled by the scope of my dream to make milkshakes and skate around the round Red Rooster building. Neither one had read Dr. Spock so they felt no compunction about actively dissuading me from my goal. My father had vague, grandiose ambitions for me, predicting that there would be a female president by the time I was an adult (Uh, Dad, you underestimated a bit), and alluding to the diplomatic corps from time to time. Ironically, he told me in no uncertain terms “girls can’t be astronauts”, a statement I accepted without question since he worked for Bell Aircraft Missile Systems.

My mother, far more pragmatic (and probably hoping to protect me from the slings and arrows she felt awaited me) told me I should take up nursing or teaching, until I had a family. I can almost feel my head cock to one side as I write this, and I’m sure the quizzical look I gave my mother confused her. I remember thinking “I thought all those Miss America ladies were just trying to fool the judges when they said that.” I was shocked to hear those very words from my fourth grade classmates when we talked about what we wanted to be when we grew up.

All this reminiscing was brought about by a recent conversation I had with a young professional. Over the course of our conversation she told me that she thought my generation had made things easier for hers, but that we were “bra-burners” and that we had gone too far. To say I was stunned would be an understatement. I can remember that when I entered graduate school, in a class that had only 19% women, the belief was that the changes we were striving for in gender equality would not be seen in our life times.
Now I was listening to someone tell me that the fight that made her own education and professional path so much easier had ‘gone too far’.

In a way, I guess it might be a good thing (can you get any more conditional than that statement?). If education and opportunity are so accessible to young women that they can look back and criticize the women who fought for that access, a new norm is so well established that it would be difficult to erode. Still, it was only a very deep breath and counting to ten, or maybe twenty, that gave me the wherewithal to nod knowingly and say, “I know a lot of people think that.”

I wonder what such a young woman would have done if her own father had looked her in the face and said, “Girls can’t be astronauts?” Would she roll her eyes and walk away? That would be the best expression of the true progress we’ve made.

I never did get to ride on a fire truck. So if any of you work for the fire department or know someone who does, see if you can arrange it for me. I’ll bring my own spotted dog.

Troubling

I find myself deeply troubled by the story of Travis the chimp attacking and attempting to kill someone with whom he had a long acquaintance. The story just didn't make sense to me, but as details trickle in, the picture becomes clearer.

When you work with domestic animals and wildlife as much as I do, you gain a very clear understanding of the problems created by anthropomorphizing animals. I've often seemed like a very cranky chick when posting on NPR about the "cute" stories of human and wildlife interaction. However, it is a lot more difficult to keep that boundary than some would think.

The media, in an attempt to make the story salacious, is now reporting that the woman who had Travis in her care slept and bathed with him. My dogs sleep with me, and a close friend of mine takes her parrot into the shower with her. Parrots love running water, and it is play time for the bird. How cute do we think it is when a dog jumps into a swimming pool to play with children?

The problem, of course, is that the chimp is so humanlike. And once you begin to expect an animal, wild or domestic, to react like a human, you've let an important guard down.

Wild animals do react differently in some, but not all, circumstances, because domestic animals have been bred for . . . .domesticity! Domesticity to humans is companionability, docility, and adaptibility. While a wild animal can be tamed,it seems to me that they always retain some part of that wildness. First, they are far more alert to threat than is a domestic animal. Secondly, they react often with agression or show of agression, rather than retreat, when threatened. Lastly, they are expert at sizing up the opponent as to size, submissiveness and agility.

No matter how much you are around animals it is possible to make that instantaneous mistake that gets you in trouble. I had adopted a wild mustang as a 6 month old filly. I picked her because she had the conformation of an Arab, was very alert, and seemed highly intelligent. Good traits in a domestic horse. When she was about a year old, while in the corral with her, I managed to let her back me into a corner between the manger and the gate. She quickly turned her rear to me, and "trapped" me. I stood quietly for a bit trying to think what to do. While my mind raced, I spoke aloud, "Please don't kick me." Wham! Luckily I put my arm up and caught the blow with it, so she didn't hit my face. Lesson: a dometic animal may find the human voice soothing, a wild animal does not.

The detail that made the whole Travis story, tragic and horrible as it is, make sense to me, is that the injured woman held a toy up in front of her face and waggled it at the chimp to try and get him into the house. It's hard to say what happened next. Perhaps he grabbed for the toy and she tried to hold onto it. Perhaps the toy appeared to be a threat to him, like my human voice did to the little mustang.

There are no easy answers. I always remember that Jane Goodall, once back in the States, went to visit a chimp in a lab and had the top of her thumb bitten off.

I think one point the chimp's owner made that we all need to remember is that people kill people every day, sometimes in extremely brutal ways. That doesn't mean that all people are murderers. I hope that all the pundits who are finding people to say how dangerous chimps are will balance those stories with the incredible learning abilities that chimps have, their generally playful nature, and the incredible contribution they (unwillingly) made to scientific discoveries in this country.

Such a cranky Chick

What's the difference between someone who is observant and someone who is a cranky, cynical critic? I sure don't know.

Valentine's day night was quite the adventure here in small town land. I went to a local cafe to watch a friend's blues band play. And I saw a few things I found depressingly familiar.

At one end of the bar a couple canoodled and coo'd, holding hands and acting all goo goo eyed. They lovingly shared bites of each other's food, and gave the impression of a young couple in love. Until the cake came. Now it is a law of nature, that you can never gain more weight from a bite of food than that bite weighs. (I know, I know it changes your metabolism . . .blah blah blah) The cake was beautiful, a several layer chocolate cake with a delicious looking fudgy frosting, sitting in a puddle of raspberry sauce, and garnished with whip cream and what looked like sugared violets. I mean, I was tempted to mug them and take the cake for myself.

As it happened though, the man in this picture took the first bite of cake, and lovingly moved the spoon toward the woman's mouth. At which point she turned her head. I mean, if the boy hadn't been alert, he woulda deposited the bite of cake on her cheek. Hahaha they laughed.

Watching this I wanted to shout "Eat the damn cake!"

Life is short, my little fajitas, a lesson one learns when the voice on the other end of the line says you have cancer. Celebration comes rarely enough. Eat the bite of cake, share the cherry pie, have some fruit cake . . .okay, maybe not the last one. The moments of celebration far outweigh the little bit of extra time you'll have to work out to burn up the calories from the celebratory food.

So, next time you're at a colleague's going away party, remember my cranky voice, shouting for the whole room to hear: Eat the damn cake!

It's True

I never expected it. I mean, like everyone of my generation, I tried everything. Transcendatal meditation, which led to loud snoring. Scry gazing, during which I learned that it was time to start waxing my brows. High altitude sunbathing on granite surfaces to remove all wordly distractions, which was probably the best nap I ever had, except for the hideous sunburn. Catholic mass, til they played the Star Spangled Banner as a hymn. Past life regression, um, see snoring and naps above. Pychoanalysis, but I DO love my mother.

The purpose of all this was to determine the purpose for which I have been placed upon this beautiful blue orb. But like a good Zen buddhist being smacked with a pole by the master, it took an actual real life experience for me to finally get it. Today was the day of reckoning. No, I wasn't Joan of Arc in a past life. No, I'm not here to enlighten the world as to the true meaning of life, write the great american novel, perfect the new goat cheese cheesecake recipe. No, I'm not here to follow the path that God has laid out for me.

I am here to change the toilet paper roll. That's it. The die was cast the day I was born, and I can't believe how long it has taken me to figure it out. In every office I've occupied, in every home in which I've resided, and in every gym in which I've sweated away the hours, I appear to be the only person who knows how to change the toilet paper.

My favorite is the person who leaves the two squares on the roll, just so they won't have to actually remove that cardboard tube. Two squares? Honestly. I mean you can't even blow your nose on two squares of toilet paper.

Having finally discovered my true destiny, I am content at last. I really consider it quite an honor to have such a humble service as my life task. So, when you come visit, don't fret your little head. Use it up! Or leave only the part glued to the cardboard. I'm coming behind you. I'll take care of it.

A Poem for St. Valentine's Day

To my dearest, darling Jake,
We're all entitled to One Mistake,
So Lorna, I could deal with fine,
but Sue, Jill and Mary I couldn't take.

The nights you stayed late at "work",
how'd you turn into such a jerk?
The calls at home in whispered tones,
the race to answer the telephone.

These thoughts I keep fresh in mind,
as I write this Valentine.
On this day when Love abounds,
I'm glad to say, I'm not around.

I took the car, my clothes, the money,
but I'm thinking of you honey,
Tonight around your sleeping time,
the Sheriff will bring my Valentine.

The papers give you twenty days,
to wake up to your cheating ways,
Have some fun, buy some candy,
but keep your lawyer's number handy.

Love, Janet

Copyright, 1989